Tag: change

Luck and Peace

For half a breath it seemed
All my wishes were coming true
But then I exhaled
And the truth came crashing through
There is no fulfilment here
Not in this lifetime at least
So I will continue being me
And wish you luck and peace

Only Moments

It would seem my defences
Have left me stranded
Drowning in the impossible
There is no way back
And no way forward
Only current moments remain
Where I am soothed
Despite the uncertainty

Mutation

It’s been quite a while
Since I sat in this place
Awash with memories
That bring a smile to my face
And tears to my eyes.
Remembering the first time
I waited with bated breath
And then again twelve months on
Mourning the imminent death
That never eventuated
It has been quite a ride
Of exhilarating proportion
Overcoming highs and lows
Even emotional extortion
And desire unleashed
I’m still as grateful as ever
Possibly even more so
For all that has been
Because it helped me grow
And become the me I am
Whatever lays ahead for me
It can’t change what’s been
Or any of the moments
Now recalled as a dream
Or at times a nightmare
But all those moments exist
Within the essence of me
Perhaps spliced to my DNA
Forever changing how I see
The world and all within it

Reframing

Every time I think I know,
You give me a different perspective.
And although it’s been a few times now,
It is always unexpected.
We talked of pain and dark desires,
And a need to understand them,
But Sweetheart, now you’ve shown me
There’s another way to beat them.

Stepping Out

Moving at the speed of light
From the start right to the end
And beyond, as it turns out
My head is still in a spin

Thinking of the pure delight
There’s no longer a defence
To keep these emotions out
Or to keep the desire in

And now in the dead of night
The questions never relent
And I’m filled with so much doubt
About what and where we’ve been

For you are with her tonight
And all of my love is spent
So tonight I’m stepping out
As temptation pulls me in

Shredded

Sometimes the catalyst
Is not what we expect
For me a simple phone call
Didn’t prepare for what came next
To have to stand and face
The things that were done
When you feel so isolated
And as though you’re all alone
Takes a courage and a strength
Few could understand
To directly confront the one
Who destroyed you by their hand
To learn your life has been a lie
That it was right from the start
Not only messes with your head
But completely shreds your heart