Step One

You no longer deserve the title
So that will be step one
On the road to telling you
We’re done

Respect

I thought of you this morning
As I passed the place we met
And I considered how different
My life would be today
If Fate had not intervened
And thrown you in my way
On the verge of retreating
To a comfort zone
Not really so comforting
Two hours and a simple question
Changed my path and my life
Enabling my Self full expression
Bringing amazing experiences
And people to continue the lesson
I miss our conversations
And the sound of your laugh
But for someone so broadminded
Some of your views are very harsh
And your public denigration
Of a right we all should have
Meant I put our friendship aside
The irony almost overwhelming
Given your part in my self-acceptance
But although we no longer talk
I hope you’re doing well
And perhaps one day we’ll walk
Side by side one more time
And respect that our differences
Are what make us each unique

Duplicity

Do not think that I’m naive
Underestimate me at your peril
Please don’t think I’m stupid
Let me make it clear
I’m not a complete idiot
Can I fool you that I am?
I wonder what would happen
‘Twere the lies to be revealed
You think it would be pretty?

Best Wishes

First you held me
Like you should have done
Right from the very start
Then we talked
About all the things
That had broken us apart
You didn’t just listen
But really heard
The things I had to say
I heard you too
When you apologised
For the part you played
Our friendship grew
As I knew it could
With lies laid to rest
And now that’s done
All I can do
Is wish you all the best

Stepping Out

Moving at the speed of light
From the start right to the end
And beyond, as it turns out
My head is still in a spin

Thinking of the pure delight
There’s no longer a defence
To keep these emotions out
Or to keep the desire in

And now in the dead of night
The questions never relent
And I’m filled with so much doubt
About what and where we’ve been

For you are with her tonight
And all of my love is spent
So tonight I’m stepping out
As temptation pulls me in

Missing Pieces

You say I’m not the same
As the girl you first met
Except, of course, my name
Because I haven’t changed that yet
You say I have gone missing
And, in part, that may be true
But some of what is missing
Was taken away by you

Master and Magician

The Master Manipulator
Has grown Angel wings
Surpassed by a Magician
Of illusory things
Expert teachers no one can beat
In upfront dishonesty
And concealed deceit
The lessons are learnt
I’m moving on
And all of the hurt
Will one day be gone

Eternal Love

Heart beats
Slapped in the face
I love you

Heart beats
Stomach punched
I love you

Heart beats
Bones broken
I love you

Heart beats
Skinned alive
I love you

Heart beats
Eviscerated
I love you

Heart beats
Flesh filleted
I love you

Heart beats
Chest cavity cracked
I love you

Heart beats
Watch the pumping blood
I love you

Heart beats
Ventricles quiver and still
You whisper, “I love you”

Blind Love

“Everything will become clear”
A friend has said to me
And the evidence is emerging
Helping me to clearly see
How desire can make you blind
The question arising now
Is how much more will I find?

Indifference

If you lash out at me
I withdraw
I go quiet
I don’t fight back
I let you vent
Form your own opinions
Say whatever you want
But the side effect
Is my respect
Is chipped away
Little by little
Bit by bit
Until personal attacks
Make me ill
Physically
In the stomach
And my feelings
Die a slow
Painful death
Then one day
They no longer exist